Babylove.

Ill start writing here again. since no one reads it anyways.. just so i remember whats going on with my life.
ok stupid lolibitch account. Pissed me off for a while but Myron was right, theres alot more things to worry about in this world than people loving me.
ate burger machine for the first time yesterday with dc, shit was BOMB. I love it as much as i love shawarmas. Daddy would kill me though if he knew i was eating street foods. remember charm you got sick from those damn pugo & fishballs.
weekend, party, blah. fucked up with Bubu for the second time. why shes still my best friend, i dont know. I love her to death. Bebie is a warrior. I wish i could be as strong as her. Big girls dont cry right?
Friday was arriite kojs party. saturday was arriite too and only cause i was under the influence.
today started out good. woke up in bed late. chatted with dc and myron. myron got me talking about life & what not. what am i gonna do when im legal… we’ll see. I dont WANT to run away like my sister did, but things here are pretty fucked up. I can’t leave my daddy though. I have to take care of him.
So dropped out, be back next sem. HOPEFULLY better than lame excuse of a class I had back then. Gossip gossip gossip rumors right now.
I lost like 12 lbs this summer cause i gained like 10 this summer then i lost 10 then i lost 2. then i fuckin gained one so im back at like 109 and none of that shit matters cause i still look the same.
gotta go to the doctor on friday. check up again. i swear im dying or something. wouldnt be too bad, hey. just messing.
miss my two hoes.
its almost 7am. my ass needs to get some sleep. i got NO money. broke as hell since im not going to school right now.
I think i need to change the title of my blog. think i will. if you knew me well, you’d know why.
i shoulda put down all the myron stuff here… aww tooo bad i never noticed or even remembered i put shit on here about julian. pretty tight. that was the times we were falling apart though.

i miss myron. well i miss being with him all the time like we used to. BEING SECURE. I miss our platonic relationship. The late nights with no drama. We never really had any drama. Just two misunderstandings. Our relationship was pretty good though. But nothing OMG exciting.. You know what i mean? I guess thats why i want it to be platonic because our exciting moments all happened when we werent officially a couple.

no love life now. just trying to get everything settled. gotta get my effing permit renewed asap so i can get my lisence again before my drug test expires.

Joaquim thinks im being an ass. Im just a bitch, he thinks ive changed which i guess i have but im an angry drunk and if i dont make pansin to you when im drunk it DOESNT MEAN I HATE YOU. it means im fucking throwed and i dont know what the hell im doing so dont come up to me and talk to me all hostile cause ill just get confused and furious.

stole Joms car what last week? with Bebie. Fuckin scariest moment. Not cause i stole his car, but cause he called hella mad. Shit was fun though but wrong. But still fun. I said I was sorry.

TYRA show is on! yeyey.

anyways, AUF is a retarded school. haha shiet man.
i miss sp&m. the spot near the church is hot as fuck.

this stuff is getting long.

just updating.
need to talk to joan soon before she has the baby. its been a while..

xoxo